Your poem “friendly advice to a lot of young men” says that one is better off living in a barrel than he is writing poetry. Would you give the same advice today?
I guess what I meant is that you are better off doing nothing than doing something badly. But the problem is that bad writers tend to have the self-confidence, while the good ones tend to have self-doubt. So the bad writers tend to go on and on writing crap and giving as many readings as possible to sparse audiences. These sparse audiences consist mostly of other bad writers waiting their turn to go on, to get up there and let it out in the next hour, the next week, the next month, the next sometime. The feeling at these readings is murderous, airless, anti-life. When failures gather together in an attempt at self-congratulation, it only leads to a deeper and more, abiding failure. The crowd is the gathering place of the weakest; true creation is a solitary act.
connect with something feel involved
withdraw from something feel nothing dissolve
Violence does not always take a physical form.
"Sometimes you just feel like the best thing to do would be to fall forward and let it crush your ribs… just give in right there. But as long as there is some sort of harmony going on with another human being, music or conversation, it can give colour and nuance and vitality to something that seems like it would inherently be the opposite. Like, there is no way you could make the darkness fun. But there is. You can."
I bought a horse thinking that I could ride away
Through mountains and rivers and fields of hay,
I dream by firelight and in my dreams I wonder what you’d say
You won’t hold me tight but you won’t let me walk away.
12 track album
I made an album on my own in my room. Its about boys and snacks and generally trying to be a normal person trying to think normal things. Go listen!
A welcome numbness is coming.